Imagine that. Another round with a specialist that left me upset. I’m begging God for a diagnosis and not just guesses!! I don’t want to enter another round of therapy that might help when the doctor isn’t even sure what is wrong!
Today I ate just to fill an emotional void. I felt so good about resisting this on Friday, but I didn’t win the battle today. It wasn’t that I blew my calorie count; I was still pretty much in line with AMOUNT of food, but I made mindless choices for unhealthy treats out of an attempt to fill an emotional need. I wish I’d slowed down and tried to deal with my angst in a healthier manner.
It doesn’t help that it’s freezing cold outside, and I can’t bring myself to take another 9 degree trek. I did ride the stationery bike when I took Sam to physical therapy, so I got my exercise in. But something about walking outside helps me deal with junk (both the emotional junk of my life and the junk food temptations!) and connect with God, which makes me stronger.
It’s weird. It was a successful day as far as calorie count and exercise, but I still can’t count it as successful because I don’t want to turn to junk to heal me.
It never will. ~ January 14, 2013
Yesterday’s little compromise turned into slightly bigger compromises today. I ate chips just because they were there, and I was emotional. I went over calorie count.
I’m glad I’m seeing this. I didn’t think I was that much of an emotional eater, but when life pressed hard, I grabbed Pringles. (Chili-lime. They weren’t even that good!)
I want to grab Jesus. My journal. My walking shoes. Turn to something that truly heals instead of to something that only hurts me in the long run.
I am going to ask the Lord to help me be INTENTIONAL about how I handle hurt, stress, disappointment, and frustration. I don’t need junk food; I need HIM and the healthy choices He can show me.
Wow. That seemed huge, what I just wrote. I’m now inviting God into my food choices. I’m pretty sure I’d made that off-limit to Him in the past.
How cool is that?? Getting connected with mind, soul, heart, emotions, spirit . . . and BODY.
~ January 15, 2013
Real Time Update:
I continue the path of seeking to understand the connection between body and spirit. God made us flesh AND spirit, mind AND soul. Leaving any part of me out when connecting with Him is to miss part of what He offers me in relationship.
What About You?
How do you deal with your emotional eating saga?