Here I am again.
Life gets a little tough. Disappointing news hits. And I’m sitting at my computer dreaming of popcorn.
With extra butter.
For over a year I’ve fought to lose and then maintain weight.
After all of this time you’d think old habits could be completely broken.
Only maybe reaching for food to deal with emotions is more like an addiction that requires life-long, sustained effort to resist than a habit that can be broken after 30 days.
Today’s trigger is the fact that my youngest son needs another hip surgery. Tomorrow’s trigger may be something simple–like feeling bored.
But no matter which hits, I know food will solve nothing.
I just took a break to make a nice, hot cup of no-calorie, healthy antioxidant green tea. And I’m saying a prayer for strength, comfort, wisdom.
It’s one of those next better choices I seek to make over and over.
I started typing again only to have my rings irritate me because they are rolling around on my fingers as they often do now on chilly days. (And these are my smaller sets. I gave away the bigger ones.)
I love it that my fingers–as well as all parts of me–are thinner.
I hate it that the journey to health didn’t end when the chart said normal instead of obese. That even now I must be on guard to maintain.
Never, ever again can I return to a lifestyle of mindless eating to numb emotion if I want to be strong and healthy, and maintain a normal weight.
And that is okay. Because food never solved the problems anyway.
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