It was as if God gave me a little shake, spoke to me, then let me return to my night’s rest.
It happened Saturday night. As you know, I’ve been fighting to rediscover Paula the Writer. Despite the fact I have two published books and over 300 published non-fiction pieces (not to mention blogging), I sort-of lost her.
Determined to return to consistent productivity as a writer, I’ve spent many agonizing hours at the computer in 2015. My friend says I’m like a gymnast who knows how to do flips and all kinds of wonderful things, but is out of practice.
So I sit, stretching my muscles, trying to limber up so I can return to the abilities I once had. I still know how to flip across the mat, but I’m out of shape and stiff.
As I entered 2015 the Lord promised me this would be a year of release. As I journaled and prayed I asked Him to help me find His rhythm as a writer. In response to His prompting I wrote that I was to spend my early writing hours on fiction and then switch gears in the afternoon to spend some time writing non-fiction. (This goes against typical advice of editors, publishers, and agents who tell you to focus on one, build your brand, and get established before thinking about doing the other, but I sensed He wanted me to start writing both–in the same day–something I had not considered.)
But I didn’t do it.
Once I started trying to write, I dug into a novel I’d promised my agent. I felt I wasn’t free to do anything else until I met that commitment. I’ve struggled fiercely with it and spent painful hours staring at the screen. I blew off the whole idea of writing non-fiction for a part of each writing day. I couldn’t even do fiction. Did I really want to add another stress to my over-taxed brain?
But Saturday night I briefly awoke, was told I was supposed to be doing both, and went back to sleep.
So Sunday I tried it. I wrote almost 1400 words on my novel, glanced at the clock, and closed the document. The second half of my allotted writing time would be non-fiction. As I meditated on which project to tackle, I had a sense I was to begin to compile the 205 devotionals I wrote several years ago. The goal is to add a few more and release them as a year-long devotional book.
The journey through what will be the first month of my devotional book has blessed me beyond imagining. As I relieve those hard-earned spiritual discoveries, my heart reaches to God in worship, so grateful for all He’s brought me through, touched even now, by His attention during that time. I’ve chuckled at His humor, teared at precious memories, and quite frankly been blown away by the richness of what I’m reading.
I can’t wait to share my deep spiritual journey of those years with whatever readers come my way. A marketing plan–which includes lots of give-aways and pricing that makes it affordable to many–is playing in my mind. I’m so excited I can hardly wait.
So I’d appreciate your prayers. One of these days–hopefully by late spring–I’ll let you know where you can get the book! My working title is Soul Scents: Longing for the Fragrance of Christ.
I can’t tell you how good it feels to have the excitement building within me. This book will be one of the deepest offerings of my heart.
Until next time,
PS Facebook messaged a good friend about this before posting the story here. She called with something that encouraged me greatly. She was praying on Sunday morning, asking God to light a fire underneath me to put together this very project! Talk about confirmation of the journey!
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Prayers going up dear Paula. Thanks for the heads up on the book. Looking forward to it. You go girl. Blessings and love.
Thank you, Tom. God is so sweet and gentle with us, isn’t He? Your prayers are greatly appreciated, my friend.
Yes! I’m excited for you. This would be a wonderful year for you to return to CCWC. I’ve missed you!
I’ve missed you, too! My youngest graduates at the same time as CCWC this year. Third year in a row the conference dates have conflicted with special events in the lives of my children! I know the conference will bless many. I always am sad not to be there. I’ve learned much there–and would probably have given up long ago if it were not for the way God used you and this conference in my life.
Always praying for you Paula.
I know you can do it. It’s hard because if it was easy, you wouldn’t have to go to your knees and talk with our Father about your projects. He wants to help and since you asked him…he wills to do just that.
May the Fragrance of Jesus pour over you and anoint you from head to toe on through your devotional book. and cover your readers with soothing love and encouragement.
Thank you Father for Paula and her sincere desire to serve you, please help her in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Your prayers are precious to me, Paulette!
You have been such an encouragement to me in my writing and I will always be deeply grateful for that. Especially knowing you are a ‘real’ writer. And it goes beyond the writing, you have done a beautiful thing for me…you cared.
Can’t wait to read what is born of your beautiful heart.
You have a gift, Rebekah! How can I not celebrate what God pours through you? Thank you for your kind words. I love what you do. It is real and beautiful and a constant determination to journey toward Him even in the rough places. Prayers for this little book would be appreciated!